Okay, tumblr. You are going to be a dear diary for a hot moment.
I just got back from Colorado tonight.
Any who, a friend was in a really dark place and had texted me last night. My phone had been living at the bottom of my bag all week, so I didn’t even look at my phone until I was back home sitting on my bed thinking I should check my phone. I did so only to find this trigger text. The kind of text where you know someone is in a ton of pain. I tried calling, and texted them like crazy. No answer. My first thought was not again. When I was 12 my cousin had cancer. He left me a message on my home phone telling me he loved me, and that he would never forget me. I had just finished visiting him. A week later, I would find that my 16 year old cousin shot himself in the barn. Lets just say this text brought back a lot of hurt. I freaked, assumed the worst, and was on my way to make sure my friend was fine. It turns out my friend was fine and called me on the road.
I was so relieved. So for any of you reading this I want you to know someone would cry over you. Someone will be devastated when they find out what happened. That you are loved no matter what. Remember you have worth, and leaving this world also means your leaving us.